It has been a while since I have last posted anything here. I have been in the spin cycle of the year. With school, meditation teacher training, looking for work, and recovery, there was little time for damn near anything in my life.
Well now we are a month into summer, I got a job at a vape shop (Vape Spot PDX, 3rd and Burnside downtown), the finishing touches are being put into the next book, and I have developed a pretty hefty addiction the video game Fallout 4. And yesterday was my 8 year anniversary of when I last got sober. I am also trying to start a ketogenic diet, but yet to no avail.
Also, today marks the first day of my Year To Live practice. A Year To Live was a book written by Stephen Levine. After getting connected to Noah Levine and later going on to help start the Boston Dharma Punx group, I have been aware of Noah’s father Stephen and his teachings. I had been briefly introduced to his work via Ram Dass, whom he was a good friend, and have been intrigued by his work in geriatrics and around death and dying for some time.
I had always planned on starting it on a one of sobriety anniversaries, but just never stepped up to the plate. But just recently a friend of mine was diagnosed with cancer and mortality became the obsession de jour. Dealing with the deaths of others, the mortality of others, only forced me to question my own mortality and become utterly terrified. So this year, as I will be taking a year off from meditation teacher training to focus on my senior year of my bachelors degree, as well as applying to grad school. So I figured this was a great practice to fill up some time. I will also be using this year to spend at least 20 minutes a day in some form of compassion work, may it be Loving Kindness meditation, or some other form heart centered Buddhist work. But I realized I really need to work on trying to soften the edges.
So I am hoping to use this as a way to document what is happening in my Year To Live practice, and all the written work included. I am also hoping it will become the catalyst for my book on Buddhism and mindfulness, which I hope to write within the next 5 years.